Last week was very busy at work, I was easily working for close to 70 hours. I traveled to Auburn and Tacoma for some dealership fieldwork. I stayed with Hannah for two nights to avoid all the traffic from driving from Bellevue and also just to spend sometime with her. James and Chey tease us a lot but over the last couple years Hannah has become a really important friend to me. I like picking her brain about different things because she actually engages in deep conversation which I am realizing is hard to find in most people.
The Friday that week was Valentine's Day and it came and went like any other Friday. That night I started watching the show Ragnarok on Netflix. It was surprisingly super good. It's Norwegian which is something I am not use to seeing on TV. I watched it in Norwegian to get the full experience. The show is an interesting take on the Norse mythology. I watched the whole thing in one weekend.
Saturday I woke and had to run 7 miles for my marathon training. I was a little worried because I hadn't ran over 3 miles since the half marathon I ran in December. After the first 3ish miles I was feeling great and the rest flew by. I then went to work and was there for roughly 10 hours. I left around 7pm. I went home and packed a bunch of clothes because I was going to be in Chehalis for work most of the next week and I always spend my Sunday at my Dad's working on Tammy.
Sunday is always my favorite day. My uncle was over helping my dad poor some concrete in the barn and he is master craftsman for sure. He was also helping me figure out how to do certain thing to the van. He taught me how to make cabinet doors, which are basically picture frames. I was so amazed. The process was pretty simple with the right tools but my brain would not have been able to put it all together on its own. But now I know how to do it and will never forget. It was one of the coolest things I have been taught. I was started to build a box around my battery and the other electrical components. Pictures to follow of course.
Monday through Wednesday I stayed down in Chehalis in a hotel with some co-workers. Luckily the ones who were with me are my favorite to work with. It was actually a lot of fun and is always great to hangout with them outside of a work setting. Brian is one of them and he is a partner, he's 59. He brought some bottles of wine for us all and he really got me into them. I never drink wine but that stuff was so good. He is a huge wine guy and has memberships all over the place. He told me if I ever go wine tasting to reach out to him so he can give me recommendations and to also give the places a call before hand to hook me up. I am hoping to take him up on that offer soon.
Thursday, which is today, I was back in the office. It was kind of nice to be back and see all my friends there. Also I don't know what was special about today but I was in an incredible mood all day. I was upbeat and talkative and just so social. I wish I felt like this everyday. Fingers crossed that it continues.
These last few weeks I have been missing James and Chey a lot. I am so excited for it to be summer and I can go over to Pullman and just hang out for a couple weeks. It's funny, James and I talk every single day and we have been for awhile it seems like. I say that to some people and they are really shocked that it's everyday. We just have so many of the same thoughts and can go off on all these ideas so easily. I am very thankful for that. I don't know if they will ever truly understand how important they are to me. They are truly life changing friends.
A huge topic of today for whatever reason was "fear". It came up multiple times which was bizarre but it's something that I think about a lot and something that I feel like I have a different viewpoint on. So I was talking with my coach at work Kristin. She always tells me about books she is listening to because I am trying to read more and keep adding to my list. She was talking about a book called "Take Control of Your Life" and basically it's about confronting fear and not letting fear control your life. When she was telling me about it I told her that I always say "Don't let fear control your life" that its one of my life mottos and something I tell people often. It was interesting because for her she had never realized that fear does in fact control most people's lives and dictates what people do and don't do. She only came to that conclusion because the lady in the book told her. For me, it was something that I had figured out through my own experiences and also by thinking about why some people talk a lot but never act. It's always "I'm scared this will happen.. or what if this.. or I don't want to mess it up... or that is going to hurt.." All of that prevents people from doing so many things. They aren't living in the present, they are constantly worried about the future. Then James told me to listen to Joe Rogan's recent podcast with Colin O'Brady, and the last like 20-30 minutes of that podcast were life changing. Colin talks about those mindsets. I will try and paraphrase what really stood out to me. He had a scale of 1-10 of how much joy you get out of moments, basically. 1 being a really bad day like the passing of a loved one or just going though immense pain, and 10 being something like achieving a life long dream or goal. He goes on to say that his fear is living a life constantly being in the 4-6 range. He talks about how most people are so afraid of the 1s that they just stay in the 4-6 range, never fully experiencing life. He says that in able to get to the 10s you have to experience the 1s. You get to those life changing experiences not in spite of the 1s but because of the 1s. We have to learn to appreciate and learn from the 1s. This resonated with more than anything in a long time. It reminded me of the kayak trip the boys and I went on. During it we had plenty of 1 moments, but finishing and reaching our goal and even looking back it all, is easily a 10 moment. It was truly life changing. One more thing before I wrap up. While talking to Kristin I realized that my view point on fear is a huge reason I am so calm all the time. My co-workers always comment on how I am never stressed out and just so calm. I think of big part of that is that I'm not scared of most things. I am not scared to try or to fail. I have a desire to learn and try new things. I know failing isn't going to be the end and its one of the best ways to learn. Plus it's not like anything at work is that important in the grand scheme. It was no weight over me.
One last thing that happened yesterday. My Dad finished his classes and got his high school diploma. That is so amazing and I know how much it means to him. It just makes me incredibly happy. Also he finished it so fast... it's crazy. So proud of him.
Picture time!
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